Well, I'm a tad confused. I've been going to the gym everyday, and I've managed to go UP another 4.5lbs! :( That makes me rather sad, and it's hard to digest to be honest. The scale going back up is like a knife in my gut, it kills me inside and I fear every time I see the scale rise, that one day all my weight will one back. This needs to stop NOW. I went to the gym twice today, once for a Zumba class, and again (after weighing myself and discovering my weight gain) for cardio. 30 minutes on the elliptical and another 15 on the StairMaster, which totally kicked my butt by the way! I'm definitely adding that as a regular part of my routine. I've also decided that I need to go back to counting calories to ensure no further weight gain. Although I didn't count calories today, here's a little insight on what I did eat:
Breakfast: bran muffin
Snack: 1 tbsp of peanut butter
Lunch: Chicken terriyaki and veggies
Snack: a cup of popcorn
Dinner: BLT, fries and a salad with ranch
Needless to say, my diet has definitely fallen off track. Tomorrow is another day, and I intend to make changes tomorrow to start improving my diet and start losing this weight that I've gained!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
The Here and Now
December 9, 2010: 229lbs Making it all public :-o
So I FINALLY posted this damn blog! I have had it sitting on my computer for.... months, seriously. I didn't know how public I wanted to make it, or if I even wanted to post it at all. But I really feel this will be good for me, I feel like this will motivate me even more to get back into my routine. So I haven't gone up in weight in over a month now, which is a start, not exactly what I had hoped for (I'd prefer to LOSE weight) but I'll take it. So I got a gym membership, at 24 hour fitness. It works for me, seeing how I work till nearly midnight and am always wide awake after work. I can go to the gym whenever I want, I'm trying however, to not let this replace bootcamp, which I haven't been to since last week :[. I have however, gone to the gym everyday this week at least once. Now I just need to get back on some kind of diet and get this ball rolling again! My birthday is in less than a month and I'd like to lose the 14lbs I've gained by then, although that is a lot compared to what I was losing (averaging about 10lbs per month). For now, I wont focus on how fast I'm losing the weight, but rather a constant weight loss each week, even if it's only a pound. Bootcamp is in 4 hours.... my feet are killing me and I'm wide awake. I have my alarms set to get up, but I just don't know how I'll have the energy. =/ Tomorrow will likely be another gym day. I need to start going to sleep earlier so I can get up earlier... this is an extremely difficult task seeing how much of an insomniac I am. Wish me luck.
So I FINALLY posted this damn blog! I have had it sitting on my computer for.... months, seriously. I didn't know how public I wanted to make it, or if I even wanted to post it at all. But I really feel this will be good for me, I feel like this will motivate me even more to get back into my routine. So I haven't gone up in weight in over a month now, which is a start, not exactly what I had hoped for (I'd prefer to LOSE weight) but I'll take it. So I got a gym membership, at 24 hour fitness. It works for me, seeing how I work till nearly midnight and am always wide awake after work. I can go to the gym whenever I want, I'm trying however, to not let this replace bootcamp, which I haven't been to since last week :[. I have however, gone to the gym everyday this week at least once. Now I just need to get back on some kind of diet and get this ball rolling again! My birthday is in less than a month and I'd like to lose the 14lbs I've gained by then, although that is a lot compared to what I was losing (averaging about 10lbs per month). For now, I wont focus on how fast I'm losing the weight, but rather a constant weight loss each week, even if it's only a pound. Bootcamp is in 4 hours.... my feet are killing me and I'm wide awake. I have my alarms set to get up, but I just don't know how I'll have the energy. =/ Tomorrow will likely be another gym day. I need to start going to sleep earlier so I can get up earlier... this is an extremely difficult task seeing how much of an insomniac I am. Wish me luck.
Prologue
I've never been a small girl, I suppose I've always been on the "thicker" side. I love food, and working out wasn't exactly a hobby of mine, so gradually my "thickness" turned into, well... fat. I steadily gained weight for at least 4 or 5 years, yo-yo dieting mixed with random workout here and there, but really I wasn't headed anywhere. This year has been my first REAL attempt at changing not only my physical appearance, but establishing a diet and exercise routine that actually work for me.
January 2010: 263lbs The beginning of the road to a smaller me.
I started small, and we're talking baby steps here. No soda... Step One. Easy enough right? Wii Fit, a video game that's considered a workout? SWEET! Step Two. I started doing Wii Fit about 3 times a week, still eating whatever I desired, minus the soda. Over the next 2 months I increased it to 5 times a week, occasionally going for a walk in place of Wii Fit and I phased out french fries. By the end of April I had managed to lose 23lbs! I was stoked! My mother, seeing my progress, informed me of a trial she found for Hardcore Fitness Bootcamp, an outdoor workout group. We decided to give it a try...
May 2010: 243lbs Things step up a notch.
Day one of bootcamp was the hardest workout I had ever put myself through, it made my Wii Fit seem like... a video game. By day two I was incredibly sore from the first day's assessment, but I was back and ready to see what else this 2 week trial had to offer. We worked muscles I didn't even know I had! Each day I thought for sure there was no way I'd make it through the next day, I was always the slowest runner, my knees hurt, my muscles ached and I was completely out of breath. Everyone was very encouraging and it was nice to see the same people there each day working out together. At the end of the 2 week trial, I decided I had to keep coming to bootcamp. I had proved to myself that I could do so much more than I ever would have pushed myself to do on my own, I knew that if I worked hard, this would help me reach my goals.
June 2010: 235lbs The Diet
The first month of bootcamp was intense, a different muscle group everyday, running a mile (jogging and walking really) and 3 miles at one point (definitely a lot of walking). I had lost another 8lbs! This is where they introduced a diet to me, calorie counting, low sugar and carbs and a lot of water and lean protein. I decided to give it a shot. It was hard... really hard. I ate 6 small meals per day, each meal slightly different than the last, making subtle changes to try and trick my taste buds into thinking they might be getting into something good. I craved bread, pasta, and chocolate but I knew I needed to really work hard to see results so I stuck to it, cheating a little at first but once the pounds starting literally falling off, it was a lot easier to stick to this new strict diet. I kept it up for nearly 2 months straight, which if you love food the way I do, is a very long time! I was dieting and working out 5 days a week, I was on a roll...
August 2010: 216lbs What goes up, must come down
I had lost 47lbs in 8 months... and I got lazy. I missed a few days of bootcamp here and there, which eventually led to a full week at a time, then multiple weeks, and my diet failed along with my motivation. I honestly can't even tell you what happened. I was so happy with my weight loss and so proud of myself for coming so far. I wasn't anywhere near the end of my journey, and yet it's like I gave up. I still worked out here and there, but I had to take a month off due to lack of finances and this is where it all went downhill.
October 2010: 222lbs Enjoying my "break" (a little too much)
For the first time, my weight had INCREASED. I started to freak out a little bit, though I'm not sure what I expected when I began eating whatever I wanted and stopped working out. I decided I needed to get back into it. I went back to bootcamp on a Monday, Tuesday I didn't wake up in time, Wednesday I went, Thursday and Friday I skipped it. I WAS SO LAZY. I was tired, didn't want to wake up in the morning, but couldn't go at night due to work, and I wasn't even making an effort to go for a jog or even do a workout video at home! I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, getting back into my routine was harder than I would've ever imagined.
November 2010: 229lbs A little bit better yet the scale still goes UP.
I had managed to start going to bootcamp at least 3 times a week, still not enough, but progress I suppose. I couldn't understand why the scale continued to go up, and so fast, when I had started working out more. I was still off the diet and eating pretty much whatever I wanted. I knew I needed to get back on the diet, or at least count calories. It's like the answer was staring me in the face and I just couldn't do it. Something had to change, or else my weight would continue to go up and I just couldn’t take it! I refuse to gain back all my weight! I NEVER want to see the scale go UP ever again! Still having trouble waking up in time for bootcamp, I decided to get a gym membership.
January 2010: 263lbs The beginning of the road to a smaller me.
I started small, and we're talking baby steps here. No soda... Step One. Easy enough right? Wii Fit, a video game that's considered a workout? SWEET! Step Two. I started doing Wii Fit about 3 times a week, still eating whatever I desired, minus the soda. Over the next 2 months I increased it to 5 times a week, occasionally going for a walk in place of Wii Fit and I phased out french fries. By the end of April I had managed to lose 23lbs! I was stoked! My mother, seeing my progress, informed me of a trial she found for Hardcore Fitness Bootcamp, an outdoor workout group. We decided to give it a try...
May 2010: 243lbs Things step up a notch.
Day one of bootcamp was the hardest workout I had ever put myself through, it made my Wii Fit seem like... a video game. By day two I was incredibly sore from the first day's assessment, but I was back and ready to see what else this 2 week trial had to offer. We worked muscles I didn't even know I had! Each day I thought for sure there was no way I'd make it through the next day, I was always the slowest runner, my knees hurt, my muscles ached and I was completely out of breath. Everyone was very encouraging and it was nice to see the same people there each day working out together. At the end of the 2 week trial, I decided I had to keep coming to bootcamp. I had proved to myself that I could do so much more than I ever would have pushed myself to do on my own, I knew that if I worked hard, this would help me reach my goals.
June 2010: 235lbs The Diet
The first month of bootcamp was intense, a different muscle group everyday, running a mile (jogging and walking really) and 3 miles at one point (definitely a lot of walking). I had lost another 8lbs! This is where they introduced a diet to me, calorie counting, low sugar and carbs and a lot of water and lean protein. I decided to give it a shot. It was hard... really hard. I ate 6 small meals per day, each meal slightly different than the last, making subtle changes to try and trick my taste buds into thinking they might be getting into something good. I craved bread, pasta, and chocolate but I knew I needed to really work hard to see results so I stuck to it, cheating a little at first but once the pounds starting literally falling off, it was a lot easier to stick to this new strict diet. I kept it up for nearly 2 months straight, which if you love food the way I do, is a very long time! I was dieting and working out 5 days a week, I was on a roll...
August 2010: 216lbs What goes up, must come down
I had lost 47lbs in 8 months... and I got lazy. I missed a few days of bootcamp here and there, which eventually led to a full week at a time, then multiple weeks, and my diet failed along with my motivation. I honestly can't even tell you what happened. I was so happy with my weight loss and so proud of myself for coming so far. I wasn't anywhere near the end of my journey, and yet it's like I gave up. I still worked out here and there, but I had to take a month off due to lack of finances and this is where it all went downhill.
October 2010: 222lbs Enjoying my "break" (a little too much)
For the first time, my weight had INCREASED. I started to freak out a little bit, though I'm not sure what I expected when I began eating whatever I wanted and stopped working out. I decided I needed to get back into it. I went back to bootcamp on a Monday, Tuesday I didn't wake up in time, Wednesday I went, Thursday and Friday I skipped it. I WAS SO LAZY. I was tired, didn't want to wake up in the morning, but couldn't go at night due to work, and I wasn't even making an effort to go for a jog or even do a workout video at home! I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, getting back into my routine was harder than I would've ever imagined.
November 2010: 229lbs A little bit better yet the scale still goes UP.
I had managed to start going to bootcamp at least 3 times a week, still not enough, but progress I suppose. I couldn't understand why the scale continued to go up, and so fast, when I had started working out more. I was still off the diet and eating pretty much whatever I wanted. I knew I needed to get back on the diet, or at least count calories. It's like the answer was staring me in the face and I just couldn't do it. Something had to change, or else my weight would continue to go up and I just couldn’t take it! I refuse to gain back all my weight! I NEVER want to see the scale go UP ever again! Still having trouble waking up in time for bootcamp, I decided to get a gym membership.
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